July 7, 2005-Two donuts and chocolate milk
Leave it to a food-addicted, pregnant diabetic to justify eating
donuts! Ok, bear with me on this one. A couple weeks ago we switched
my insulin injection from bedtime to morning. Well, even with normal
breakfast, but no walk in the morning, my one hour post readings
were off the board-140s and 160s. So I started walking again and
that brought the numbers to within range. Gave me extra motivation
to walk in the mornings.
Well, I decided to switch things up a bit and had some yogurt for
breakfast instead of my normal half peanut butter sandwich and milk.
Numbers were much, much better with the yogurt. Numbers were even
within range one day when I didn't walk and had the yogurt for breakfast.
Go figure, but whatever, right?
Well, yesterday my post walk number was 122, which is high considering
I'm usually around 105 after my walk. And two hours post I was still
at 105ish. Could have just been the day, but I thought it was what
I had eaten. So this morning I had the half peanut butter sandwich
with water instead of milk. Ok, we were out of milk, but I had planned
to forego the milk anyway. I was 83 fasting and 88 after my walk.
So seems to me that too much milk early in the morning might be
giving me high numbers. Two hours post I was 77.
Not bad, but I knew I was heading for a serious low if I didn't
have a big, big snack this morning. With numbers in the 100s after
my walk and a snack around 9 a.m., I sometimes hit the 60s around
11:30 a.m. or so. Well, I sort of wanted something sweet anyway,
but sort of didn't because I knew I had at least started the day
off right. But then I really didn't want to get into the 50s or
60s this morning. I don't think I've ever been lower than 61, but
I really didn't want to go any lower.
So I went to the grocery store and got two donuts and some chocolate
milk. Hey, I'm being proactive, preventing a serious low, right?
Like I said, leave it to a food-addicted, pregnant diabetic to justify
eating! Well, of course now I have a slight headache, feel fairly
nauseous and am dying for a nap. Then again, I am pregnant, therefore
I'm pretty much always tired and nauseous.
July 12, 2005-Singing in the rain
I'm quite proud of myself today. I walked outside in the rain this
morning and didn't take my abbreviated route. I think, though, that
had I known it was raining when my alarm went off I probably would
have stayed in bed, but as it was I didn't realize it was raining
until I was already eating breakfast.
I grabbed the poncho I bought after the last time I walked in the
rain. It was winter then and I was just as dedicated and determined
as I was this morning. Only I carried an umbrella then. It was pretty
difficult to deal with both the umbrella and the dog. So that's
when I decided to buy a poncho. I haven't walked in the rain since
then. I don't know if it just hasn't been raining that early in
the morning or if I've stayed in bed on those days. Even though
I had the poncho on, it didn't cover my entire head. I think next
time I'll wear a hat, too.
OK, so there are more days than not now where I feel like eating
is simply a chore, something I have to do. I used to enjoy eating,
which is obvious by my size, but I don't think so anymore. And it's
not like I miss all the bad food because I allow myself to eat that
stuff more than I should; I guess it's just that eating isn't fun
anymore. It's just something I have to do to keep from getting low
blood sugar. Although, I must admit, I'm still motivated by good
blood sugar numbers. My 90-day average is 104, which I'm very proud
of. I still have my days where I have to eat bad all day, but I'm
good for the most part.
And now I'm getting terrible sinus headaches on a daily basis.
I know it's allergy related, but Marc keeps saying that maybe I
have a sinus infection. For a while there I was only getting the
headaches in the afternoon and I sort of associated it with being
after lunch and being tired and all that. Well, the past several
days I've been getting them in the morning, too. I'm taking Sudafed,
Tylenol and/or Sudafed Sinus Headache, but I hate taking so much
medicine. I guess I'll have to break down and call the doctor.
Speaking of doctor
I have an ultrasound on Thursday.
I'll be 19 weeks exactly. I'm dying to know if George is a
boy or a girl. I will be so disappointed if they don't even
look, but I think they will. Marc's planning to go with me,
so we got a sitter for the kids so we can go alone and not
have to worry about corralling them or entertaining them or
anything. I think Marcus would find it fun and interesting
to watch that, but both kids together are just a disaster
waiting to happen in that situation. So we'll have some time
alone, which is good.
8 p.m. - I'm feeling much bigger than I am. I just have that
all over pregnant feeling. Which isn't bad all the time. I
had Marc take a belly picture of me today. I'm 18 weeks 5
days and I think I look like I'm six months pregnant. I know
some of that belly belongs to me and not George, but I still
think I'm pretty big. So now I'm worried that George is too
big. I still can't give myself a break. I think in all honesty
that we're both fine, but I know that I look bigger than almost
five months. We'll see how he's measuring on Thursday.
Well, I was 85 after dinner, which was a bit
of a shock, so I'm off to eat a snack (probably ice cream)
and then off to bed. I want to go to bed right now, but I
really don't want to go to bed with my blood sugar this low.
July 15, 2005-Be patient!
OK, so we had an ultrasound yesterday and Marc and I were so psyched
because we both really thought we were going to be able to find
out if George is a boy or a girl. We both thought this was the level
II ultrasound, but apparently not. Anyway, so one of the first things
I say to the tech is that we're dying to know the sex of this baby.
She says the doctor likes to wait until 22 weeks (I'm just 19 weeks).
We talked back and forth about it for a minute and then I asked
if she would at least look. I'm not sure what she said, but made
it fairly clear that the doctor doesn't like them to look before
22 weeks to eliminate errors.
Then, she started looking at normal stuff and said the baby's breech
anyway so it would be difficult to tell. Breech!? Breech?! What
the heck? That hadn't even crossed my mind as something I would
have to deal with. Big babyness and excess amniotic fluid and other
diabetic issues, sure, I was sort of prepared to deal with that,
but breech! What the heck is that all about? Ok, ok, so I'm only
19 weeks and George has puhlenty of time to squirm around and change
positions, but still, as soon as we walked out of the doctor's office,
I looked down at my tummy and said George you better turn over!
The good news, though, is that George is measuring exactly right
for gestational age. She measured an arm and leg bone, his head
and tummy. He weighs about 11 oz. (not quite as big as a soda!),
which is exactly right for 19 weeks. So we have a very healthy baby
so far and that's exactly what we wanted. The doctor told me to
just be patient for another two or three weeks (I said my next ultrasound
isn't until Aug. 16, which is five weeks) and we'll be able to find
out. I told him that patience is not one of my virtues, but that
I would try!
July 29, 2005-Stress sucks!
Ugh! I have inherited my mother's allergies. I noticed this significant
problem last summer. Itchy, runny nose; itchy throat; sneezing.
You name it, I've got the classic summer allergy symptoms. Except
this summer, I'm also inflicted with sinus headaches that run down
the back of my neck much like a tension headache and that also feel
better when I put my hands over my eyes much like a migraine headache.
So, I called my OB's office and talked to the nurse and explained
what was going on. She said to go to my primary because my doctor
was out of town. Primary says it's OK to continue taking Sudafed
and Tylenol. So I do. About 10 days later, I go to my OB for a regular
four week checkup and tell her about the sinus headaches and the
Sudafed. She says it's not good to take Sudafed twice a day every
day (which is about what I was doing) for the duration of the pregnancy,
which is what I figured. She suggested Claritin, but I've tried
that and didn't like it. So she prescribed Zyrtec.
I get some samples from my primary's office because I don't want
to fill and pay for a prescription that I'm only going to use a
few of if I don't like it. So I took the Zyrtec yesterday and I
was literally amazed that my symptoms practically disappeared. Although
I was quite drowsy around mid-morning, I hardly blew my nose and
there was no sign of a sinus headache. I was actually pretty shocked.
Well, this morning when I woke up I was a little congested, which
isn't all that abnormal, but I also had a slight headache. I took
the Zyrtec again around 6:30 a.m., which is about an hour after
I woke up. I'm getting a little jaded with the medicine, though,
because I've been blowing my nose and I still have that slight headache
today. Of course, neither is to the extreme that it was without
the Zyrtec, but this is only day two! I have enough to last me through
Tuesday, I think. So I'll see how the weekend goes and decide if
we should try something else maybe on Monday. Mom says I need a
decongestant not an anti-histamine. I really don't know what I need.
I just know that these headaches are really debilitating and annoying.
So anyway. I've been so emotional the last two days. I think I'm
really learning what stress does to me. I got so pissy at Marc yesterday
for the stupidest things. And I was barking at the kids. They were
being little rugrats, but I just bit their heads off instead of
trying to deal with it calmly. It's a work-related thing, so I know
once I get this project done I'll settle down a little. But the
stress has also wreaked havoc on my eating. I've had fast food and
candy almost every day this week. I was prepared to grab a bag of
M&M's and-AND-a candy bar this morning on my way to work, but
I didn't. I still want those things and still tempted to use the
$5 I have in my wallet to go out to lunch, but I'm not gonna. One
day this week my fasting blood sugar was 107 (I know!) after I had
had Chinese for dinner the night before. (I figured it was the sweet
and sour sauce.) This morning I was at 96, I think, and yesterday
I was like 89, which are both on the high side for me. I'm usually
right around 80 if I eat right. But I had Sonic for dinner last
night. I hadn't planned to, but that's how it ended up.
Anyway, I've just been on the verge of tears for two days and I
know it's just a pregnant thing. I think I'd be able to handle the
stress better if my hormones weren't raging! I'm so looking forward
to the weekend, but I've made a very long list of things that I
want to accomplish this weekend. It won't happen, but I guess it's
nice to have goals. I need to go to bed at like 6 p.m. tonight.
Maybe that will help improve my mood, too. I was telling a friend
yesterday that I love going for my walks and I feel so good after
I do it, but getting up at 5:20 a.m. every morning really takes
its toll on me by the end of the week. I usually have a good amount
of energy on Saturday morning, but by the afternoon I'm spent. I'm
ready for a nap! Last weekend I tried not to take a nap because
I was tired of sleeping away half my weekend, but I got so tired
that I couldn't keep my eyes open. I know it's good to nap, I know
my body needs it, but I just feel like there's so much stuff I can't
accomplish during the week that I have to leave it for the weekend.
And half of it isn't even fun stuff, it's doing laundry or cleaning
or something silly like that.
3 p.m.-Oh my God! I can't believe I just ate an entire bag of popcorn!
I was standing in front of the microwave and even though I knew
there would be a ton of unpopped kernels at the bottom, I took it
out anyway and said to myself that it was OK because I wouldn't
eat the whole thing anyway. And I just couldn't stop. I wasn't really
hungry but I certainly didn't feel like I was stuffing myself either.
I just kept eating and eating! Man, stress just sucks. I'm pretty
sure that an entire bag of popcorn is not great for my blood sugar,
but I guess it's better than a Snickers, right? I actually feel
slightly hungry right now. Either George is really hungry or my
body's going through a growth spurt or I'm having a severe reaction
Well, I can tell that the stress is lifting slightly, though, so
that's good. My mood has improved dramatically since this morning.
Hopefully I'll be nicer to be around this weekend.
A funny story: On Sunday, I put Megan down for her nap and when
Marc went upstairs to get something he found her with my makeup
all over her face! I should have taken a picture, but I was consumed
with making sure she knew she had done something bad. Plus, I get
my makeup from Clinique and all I could think about was how expensive
that foundation is that she just wasted!
On a side note, I don't feel so bad about splurging on Clinique
for some of my makeup because for me it lasts pretty long. I think
the foundation that I'm still using is one Mom gave me for Christmas.
So it's lasted a good six or seven months and would have lasted
several more months if Megan hadn't gotten into it!
Anyway, point of this whole story is that I just got a notice that
it's bonus time at Clinique, so I'm going to drag the kids the 45
min. to Columbia tomorrow and get some new foundation and go ahead
and get Marcus some new shoes since he's begging for them. It's
a little earlier than I want, but I'm going to splurge (like I used
to) and get good shoes instead of going to Payless. It's only been
a couple months since I got his last pair of shoes and the Velcro
is already worn out and he hates to wear them. And they're Spiderman,
who is like a god in our house, so for Marcus to shun something
Spiderman is pretty significant.
Anyway, so at least that has the potential to be something fun
this weekend. Maybe I'll get the laundry out of the way tonight.
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